Another day that I feel like $h*t!!!

So I don't know if he even cares! Does he even love me....what the heck is going on! Sometimes he confuses me....

For example: I understand that he hates his job and it stresses him out so he smokes and drink. But why does he have to do it soooo much. I think he may just use it as an excuse sometimes.....like if he were to quit and go back to his old job that he likes, he'd still do it. I would hope it would cut back to him at least not pukeing sometimes. I hate it when he does that. He is the one that is hurting his body by doing that stuff and I'm the only one worried about it.

GOSH!!!