Another day that I feel like $h*t!!!

So I don't know if he even cares! Does he even love me....what the heck is going on! Sometimes he confuses me....

For example: I understand that he hates his job and it stresses him out so he smokes and drink. But why does he have to do it soooo much. I think he may just use it as an excuse sometimes.....like if he were to quit and go back to his old job that he likes, he'd still do it. I would hope it would cut back to him at least not pukeing sometimes. I hate it when he does that. He is the one that is hurting his body by doing that stuff and I'm the only one worried about it.

GOSH!!!

Tooooo Much to Do

I just need to vent cause I have sooooooooooooooo much homework this weekend and I don't know how I am ever going to get it all done. The classes that I always have homework really loaded it on this week and the classes that don't usually give homework did!!!! What's going on! Plus I work all weekend like every weekend. How will I EVER get everything done?!?!

P.S. I feel like this a lot. There is just not enough time in the day to get everything done. I just don't know what to do.

My boyfriend and my best friend smoke

So, as I have writing on here before I'm sure I have said something about how I work in a hospital and a clinic. Well I work almost every weekend in the hospital but this weekend I got to see first hand how painful lung cancer has to be. This person was young too! I don't think people that smoke really know that it can hit you at any time in your life. This guy is sooooo sick right now and it just isn't pretty at all. He was pukeing up parts of his lungs even and his body it trying to heal itself and it is just making him sicker and. . . . You just have noooo idea.

I never want to see my boyfriend or best friend go through that but I know my best friend makes it clear that she doesn't want to quit and if someone wants to make her...that they aren't worth it. I just hope someday she desides on her own before it gets to that and I hope she doesn't have to see it for herself because it isn't pleasant to see.

I know my boyfriend as tried to quit before..even a few times but I understand it is really really hard to do. I just wish he could do it and it would work this time. I really don't want to ever see him go through that. It is soooooo bad!!!

I just know that I will never forget that experience and I never want to become a smoker because I would never want to go through that.
I hate it even when people smoke around me but sometimes it's hard to get away from when you are in a bar.

only 6 more hours

I only have 6 more hours of work today and then I can go home and pack my stuff up to go back to my home in Wausau. I can't wait to be done. I'm sick of working and I have tons of homework to do and I don't have much time to ever do it. I just need some "me" time to so that's why I'm writing on here.
Do you ever feel like that??? Like all you do is work work work and go to school and have tons of homework and it never ends. So stressful. I just need one day for myself to do nothing at all but sleep and finally feel fully rested. I never feel like I sleep anymore. I feel physically and emotionally drained and I am kinda sick of it.
What do I do???
And why can't I just turn my mind of when it IS time for bed. I mean come on...everyone else seems to be able to do it. But no not me...I sit there and worry and thing about all the things I need to get done the next day and what I didn't do that day that I should have done but didn't have time...or how I should have said things to people..or maybe I should have done this instead of that on that project...IT NEVER ENDS!!!! AAAAAHHHHHH.

need to vent a little

WOW!!! Today has been busy....and stressful. I had class from 8:00 - 9:45 and then I had work class from 10:00 - 2:30. I got a lot done so that is good but it was so much busy work. Then when I got home I called my mom but she couldn't talk so she called when she was done with work. She told me a bunch of things about my sis and stuff and then we got into a big fight. Gosh I HATE FIGHTING. So she is all mad at me and that makes it soooooooo hard for me to concentrant on things I need to be doing right now like HOMEWORK. I called my dad even to talk to him about it and he said I should worry about it and he said he would talk to her. Well that is the most of it.
Untill next time.......peace out. Stangborn

How sweet

So my boyfriend got me this beautiful pandora charm braclete that I have been wanting since...like...forever. He got three charms on it too all for my 21st birthday this year.
Well you wouldn't beleive what he did on Friday!!!!! Well we were going out to eat before we went the new batman movie(my treat for him cause he really really really wanted to see it) and the jewelry story was by the place we where going to eat but he started walking somewhere else instead of in the restaurant. I was like,"where are you going?". He said he wanted ot see what was at best buy but then he turned to the left and we where right in front of the jewelry story. I TOTALLY felt like the girl on sweet home alabama. haha. He took me in to pick out another charm for my braclete and two clams to hold them in one section.(if you have over seen them you would know what I am talking about)
I just couldn't be leave he did that just for the heck of it. No special reason. They are sooo expencive.
It was sooooo sweet though.
I'm really lucky to have a thoughtful guy.

Think before you speak.... LOL.

Thought this was funny and worth passing on.




Think before you speak...

Here are six reasons why you should think before you speak - the last one is great!
Have you ever spoken and wished that you could immediately take the words back... or that you could crawl into a hole?

Here are the Testimonials of a few people who did....


FIRST TESTIMONY:
I walked into a hair salon with my husband and three kids in tow and asked loudly, "How much do you charge for a shampoo and a blow job?"

I turned around and walked back out and never went back My husband didn't say a word... he knew better.

SECOND TESTIMONY:
I was at the golf store comparing different kinds of golf balls.
I was unhappy with the women's type I had been using.

After browsing for several minutes,

I was approached by one of the good-looking gentlemen who works at the store.

He asked if he could help me. Without thinking, I looked at him and said, "I think I like playing with mens balls"

THIRD TESTIMONY:
My sister and I were at the mall and passed by a store that sold a variety of candy and nuts.
As we were looking at the display case, the boy behind the counter asked if we needed any help.
I replied, "No, I'm just looking at your nuts."

My sister started to laugh hysterically.

The boy grinned, and I turned beet-red and walked away. To this day, my sister has never
let me forget.

FOURTH TESTIMONY:
While in line at the bank one afternoon, my toddler decided to release some pent-up energy
and ran amok. I was finally able to grab hold of her after receiving looks of disgust and annoyance from other patrons. I told her that if she did not start behaving "right now" she would be punished.

To my horror, she looked me in the eye and said in a voice just as threatening,

"If you don't let me go right now, I will tell Grandma that I saw you kissing Daddy's pee-pee last night!"
The silence was deafening after this enlightening exchange. Even the tellers stopped what they were doing.

I mustered up the last of my dignity and walked out of the bank with my daughter in tow. The last thing I heard when the door closed behind me, were screams of laughter.


FIFTH TESTIMONY:

Have you ever asked your child a question too many times?

My three-year-old son had a lot of problems with potty training and I was on him constantly. One day we stopped at Taco Bell for a quick lunch, in between errands It was very busy, with a full dining room. While enjoying my taco, I smelled something funny, so of course I checked my seven-month-old daughter, she was clean.

Then realized that Danny had not asked to go potty in a while. I asked him if he needed to go, and he said "No"

I kept thinking "Oh Lord, that child has had an accident, and I don't have any clothes with me." Then I said,

"Danny, are you SURE you didn't have an accident?"

"No," he replied.

I just KNEW that he must have had an accident, because the smell was getting worse. Soooooo, I asked one more time, "Danny did you have an accident ? This time he jumped up, yanked down his pants, bent over, spread his cheeks and yelled

"SEE MOM, IT'S JUST FARTS!!"

While 30 people nearly choked to death on their tacos laughing, he calmly pulled up his pants and sat down.

An old couple made me feel better, thanking me for the best laugh they'd ever had!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST TESTIMONY:
This had most of the state of Michigan laughing for 2 days and a very embarrassed female news anchor who will, in the future, likely think before she speaks. What happens when you predict snow but don't get any!

We had a female news anchor that, the day after it was supposed to have snowed and didn't, turned to the weatherman and asked:
"So Bob, where's that 8 inches you promised me last night?"
Not only did HE have to leave the set, but half the crew did too they were laughing so hard!

Now, didn't that feel good?
Pass it on to someone you know who needs a laugh and remember we all say things we don't really mean, so think before you speak!!!!!

Another job

So I have another little job at school for between classes. Today was my first day and lets just say . . . . . . . . I'm stressed. haha. I sure hope I can do this. I'm a little scared.

Well I guess we will see if I can do it. Who knows...Maybe I will end up liking it. I just won't get any time to chill now with school and my two other big jobs. Boy oh boy.