This last week...

This last week had been pretty crazy. Lots of stuff to do and not enough time. Story of my life right now though. One big thing was a psychology test. I always have to study like super hard for everything but my boyfriend was out late and I was sick of all the homework so I waited for him to get home and help me study for the test the next morning. Well we only went over some of the stuff one time and I was so tired so I said that we should just go to bed and I don't really care anymore about the stupid test. I did but I was so tired and stressed I just wanted to sleep. Well guess what!?!....I ended up getting a 97% on the test. AWESOME! lol.
I guess another big thing that happened was my two best friends in my college town were dating for the passed 2 weeks I guess and they broke up on friday. They thing is they both kind of agreed. I glad that they did because they both were telling me about the stuff that they hated about the other and it was really kinda getting to me. They just really really really weren't ment to be together. I just hope we all can be friends like we were before. We all would hang out whenever we had the time and always had such a blast. Things might be weird for a little while but I think it will get back to the old ways pretty soon.
Well I have to go...lots of work and homework to do today! Busy busy busy.

When will it end...

So I've been pretty stressed out lately. More than usual because of all the crap that's been going on. I have tons of homework and my 4 jobs are stressing me out...plus friends or so called friends. I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up!!! Ok Ok....maybe not but for like a month would be great. haha! I just really don't understand how stupid and imature some people can act sometimes. I mean come on. And how hippocritical they can be. GEEESH. They say something but then they can do whatever it is that you shouldn't do or say or be mad about. I mean COME ON! But whatever. I'm just going to not care about those people anymore.

So yeah I have a lot of homework but I really needed a brake last night and some old friends that I hardly ever get to see were in town and wanted to hang out. We all use to hang like every night back in the day. We went to Bogey's(a bar) and watched one of our friends band play for the last time. They did a good job! It was really fun to go so it was worth not doing homework for once but I will be kickin myself this week. I just know it. haha. Oh well.

Get done with work in a few hours. Can't wait. Been working and doing homework since 5:45 this morning! Crazzzzzy ah? That's my life for ya. lol.
Well I should prolly get back to that lovely homework that's calling my name! oh joy.

Doc. from feakin h&**!

So this weekend one of the Docs. I'm working with is just nuts. He keeps ordering tons and tons and tons and TONS of tests on different people at different times and then some again on the same people! What the heck!!!! They are spose to get all the tests in before I get to work really really freakin early in the morning and THEN if there is something wrong I have to go draw the pasient again or if there is an emergency. Geeeezzzzzzzzzzzze-laaa-weeeeeezzzzze!

I can't believe you did this!

I honestly can't believe you two did this to me! I don't understand. I thought that I ment something to you...both of you...but then you both stabbed me in the back! I don't really understand how you guys can say that you love me and then go and do such and awful thing. wow...I didn't think it would hurt like this...I had a feeling it would happen and that it was going on but I was hopeing I was wrong...but am I ever wrong but that?!? Guess not...you guys proved me right. You came out with the true and the true hurts. I don't know how I will ever forgive you guys. I want to but it's hurt. The thing is you thought I would break down over this but guess what....neither of you guys are wrong that. I'm stonger then that. I'm BETTER than you! Some of the lyrics in the song I put on here I feel about all of this.
Here it is:

Strong - by: Jordyn Taylor

Bet you thought that i'd be broken.
Mascara streakin' down my cheek.
Devastated, out the door way;
In a daze, a state of disbelief.
I bet you liked that; seeing me get mad.
but, baby i wont satisfy your need.
i've already been there, done that.
I'll be fine, even if you leave.

Ohh i dont need you anymore;
and don't you know, that

You, were the one that made me strong;
you made me stand up on my own,
with every cruel intention, you helped me find my
independence.

yeah it's all because of you,
that i have the strength i do,
to turn my pain to passion, instead of crashin'.
Boy i'm thankin' you. Boy i'm thankin' you.

Thinking back on how you changed me,
everytime, you tried to put me down.
even though you really hurt me,
underneath, myself is what i found.
so take a look inside these eyes now,
and say the things you want to say to me.
cuz i've already spread my wings out;
and your the one, the one who set me free.

Ohh i dont need you anymore
Ohh and don't you know, that

You were the one that made me strong,
you made me stand up on my own
with every cruel intention you helped me find my
independence

yeah it's all because of you
that i have the strength i do
to turn my pain to passion instead of crashin'
Boy im thanking you,

For all the tears i cried
for all the sacrafice
for all the drama
'cuz in the end it made me stronger
so trust me i'll be fine
baby i'll survive
without you, in my life, but i want you to know

that you
were the one that broke my heart
but i won't fall apart
no.. im so moving on
cuz babyyy


You were the one that made me strong,
you made me stand up on my own
with every cruel intention you helped me find my
independence

yeah it's all because of you
that i have the strength i do
to turn my pain to passion instead of crashing
Boy i'm thanking you, Boy i'm thankin you
(laughter)

This last week

I guess to could say this last week was pretty full of suprises.

First of my boyfriend and I had a couple BIG convos. on what churches we go to. He is cathlic and I am baptist. He said he wouldn't become a baptist and that hurt my feelings because he didn't even give it a chance. But after we talked for a while, we both agree that God is what is important and that we both believe in the same person so what does it matter what we are. We are both christains and THAT'S what is the big picture here. After talking about soooo many things with the differences of our churches and stuff, I felt a lot better. We even what to get a new bible together so that we can both try and read and discuse things together. It would be a great thing to do and bring us closer to God and closer to eachother.

Alright...another thing that doens't nesesurally suprise me but just is really annoying is that a girl that I know in my classes as school is sooo...Idk...stupid because she said that I was here best friend here and then once she made some other friends at work and stuff I was really happy for her but then she said the only reason we were ever friends was because she had no one else. How rude!! So now all I can think about when she ever does talk to me(which is only when she has a question or something to brag about and has no one else to brag to)is that she is such a rude person and fake to people. I see it now when she is fake to others because she use to do that to me. Guess what....she talked to me 2 times this last week. Friends huh? yeah...RIIIIIGHT.

School was heckick with midterms and such. Plus my job at the school was soooo busy. I had sooo much to do in a little amount of time. But I managed to get it all done. YEAH!!!

I had to work friday at the clinic but that went pretty well for once. Everyone was really nice I guess. I had to help with one of the students that was there to learn and practice. What a nut job! He was soooooo incretably slow...I mean come on...do you have to line up your tubes three times! NO! Plus he would leave the needle lay there...you NEVER do that. So I had to say something to him. Jeeesh.

Well I am working this weekend in my hometown again like every weekend pretty much so I guess that's pretty much it.
I only have to study for 1 big test for next week so I am happy I don't have a lot of homework for once on the weekend.

Best friend huh?

So I don't understand how a best friend could be so rude as to stop talking to there best friend with out saying what's going on.
I was there to help with everything and then the next day was wondering how she was doing and then she can't say a thing?!?!

What friend just egnores there friend completely and have no reason for doing that.

oh...and also lie about saying she doesn't cut anymore but then posts it on myspace!!! GEEESSSHHHHH.

a doctor?....and cute!!!

haha. Okay...so I'll explain the title here.

Yesterday I was working at one of the clinics that I work at and the hospital is conected but I have never gone over there before because I haven't ever really had a reason to. So anyway...we had to drop something of at there lab and I didn't know where it was so one of the girls I work with said I could go with to check it out.

First of the hospital looked beautiful and like it was a nice place to be I guess you could say.(Not that a hospital is every a nice place to really be in but I think you know what I mean.) So anyway, on the way there as we where weaving there the hallways, there was two doctors walking tward us and one looked up and smiled...like one of those stupid boyish smiles when they like someone...and he said Hi to me. He looked pretty young too!!!and cute!!! lol.

I love my boyfriend very very very much but it was just very flattering that a doctor was all boyishly smileing and saying hi to me. It made me feel a little better about myself at that moment. (I usually feel like I'm nothing really much at all I guess you could say.)